I really wish I could turn off news about that nurse who was killed near Seattle. she was one of Jake’s nurses and one of the kindest and most genuine medical professionals I’ve ever met. it makes me incredibly sad and I don’t want to see it anymore
sometimes I look at my pile of luck and I’m like wow. wow. I wish I could share this with others wow.
GOD UGH I hate how my voice sounds in my own ears. I’m so shrill and sharp and bossy ugh
I haven’t been too super positive online lately but my life is good so here I go, a Good Things post
- interviews and photoshoots
- delicious stories like The Night Circus and The Dream Thieves
- new friends whose loyalties already run deep
- an ever-deepening relationship
- the freedom to be affectionate
- small, manageable goals, reached much more often
- solving problems on whiteboards
- inspiration to write about myself
- so many new ideas populating my brain
- physical health and improved mental health
okay we’ve completely changed up the bedroom, found a magnificent rustic end table for $10, purged the coat closet, made two meals (I crafted tuna+candied bacon+spring greens sandwiches earlier, Jake just made baked mac’n’cheese and I went with my classic teriyaki chicken tenderloins) – I finished the other half of The Night Circus and have made some progress on RLS… yes, yes, good weekend
eesh air quality on the east side of the state is real bad. my sister got called to fight the fires. :/
she asked me not to text her because her phone’s blowing up and she has nowhere guaranteed to charge it but I do not like this
I made my pies again and lo mein yesterday so I’ve basically fed myself for tomorrow. also vacuumed the whole house, did all my laundry (including acquiring more hangers, which were desperately needed, and which we’re now out of again) and wrote probably 2k on RLS. really good Sunday!!!
this weekend was tough. I ran into a wall. I was missing a big piece. and Jake, despite everything this last week (month, year), had the fortitude to scoop me up in his arms and help me figure out what it was. so for the first time in a while, I don’t feel like I’m breathing underwater. I’ve got a direction. I can do this.
