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why the fuck did no one tell me up front you can’t get a car loan without a driver’s license and why the FUCK is everyone refusing to take my money
I’m not even going to drive the damn thing I’m going to fucking sit in the passenger’s seat it’s not like you have to insure me or anything
I just want to give you $300 a month is that too much to ask?!
FUUUUUCKKKKK
trying to figure out how the hell we’re going to afford transportation.
the Saturn is a wonderful little thing, but worth about half of the repairs we’ve paid this year already. and due another major repair soon. so it might be time to think about another car.
but even with car loans (BECU ftw), the cost is so fucking high. anything we get that’s worthwhile (i.e. not a $1k clunker we’ll have to repair again in a month) is going to up our insurance like crazy.
*flail*
adulthood. it can suck.
you bet your ass life motherfucking happens, supervisor.
when “life” consists of “oh wahhhh I need to leave three hours early to sell my truck,” somehow that whisks right under your radar. and so does “I’ve scheduled classes in the middle of my workday” and so does “I need to get offline to play on Facebook every ten minutes, dat cool?”
but “oshit I’ll work from home but our transmission isn’t working” is somehow offensive.
and so is asking for a certain level of respect from our customers even when there’s a language barrier.
welp.
angry angry rant below, don’t read if you’re gonna get offended
other things that annoy August on Hump Day:
– LOUD-AND-PROUD FEMINISTS WHO ASSUME SHIT ABOUT SITUATIONS WITHOUT THE WHOLE STORY
and yeah of course this isn’t only about feminists, but I have a buttload of those I follow so it’s in my face most often
but like seriously I care as much about equality for everyone as the next guy, and in fact can’t very well ignore equality because my empathy meter is so goddamn high. however, I take reeeeal issue with people trying to find something to point at in every. given. situation. and if you are only getting a piece of the story, you can’t smash it around until it fits into your little Box of Hatred (“THIS is CLEARLY an instance of MEN oppressing WOMEN because REASONS like MEN ALWAYS OPPRESS WOMEN EVERY TIME I SWEAR”).
I have actually witnessed Real Life Relationships wherein the woman constantly belittles her male counterpart for his (perceived by her) lack of physical attractiveness while going on and on about celebrities she finds drool-worthy, and he doesn’t say a goddamn word about females he finds attractive except for her (and yes, he gushes to her about her beauty all the time). IT DOES HAPPEN THAT THE WOMAN IS ABUSIVE WITHOUT MISOGYNY PLAYING A DIRECT ROLE. and sure, there are a lot of guys that looooove to objectify other women in front of their ladyfriend but that sure doesn’t give you the right to inject your pet peeve into the situation without knowing both sides.
yup I know what angry messages I’ll get back (along the lines of “BUT SOCIETY HAS SET HER UP TO NEED TO BE SO HARD AND COLD OR ELSE SHE’LL GET STOMPED ALL OVER BY EVIL MEN”) but really? seriously? there are guys out there who share your views on equality and they’re trying really goddamn hard to get out of the mindset they’ve been taught all their lives and to automatically blame each and every one of them for something they are trying NOT to perpetuate just
fuuuck
shut up
(guess I’m on a rant roll today)
yes, mother, my friends are supportive
even the ones you pretend to treat as equals
did I mention none of us are immune to questioning and reconsideration of values we were raised with?
because we’re not
so yeah, actually, people you respect(ed?) agree with me
I know that’s tough
I just read this line: “if you really like drawing it would be like killing a part of your soul to quit art.”
No. Someone might like creating. And, last I saw, you can do that in a million ways.
My creative play really took off when I was 6 and my older brother found my father’s suitcase full of old DnD books.
By middle school/high school, I was going to pursue art.
I had a falling out with art and pursued writing. And loved it. Somewhere in there I took up music, as well.
And now I’m back to art.
Will I sculpt next? Will I make paper-mache dead birds? Will I take up interpretive dance or decorative orange-peeling or perhaps just whistle made-up tunes to myself all day long?
The whole “A true artist…” crap is just that. :I
ACCURATE. I believe that even people who aren’t conventionally considered artistic can be artists. the way they put together the structure of a building can be art and creation. the way they press a fine shirt can be art and creation. the way they pare down an equation to its most crucial elements, a beautiful synergy of simplicity and complication, can be art and creation. art doesn’t mean pictures. art means expression. and some people express themselves through mediums other than pencils, tablets, and pieces of paper.
Alright, let’s talk straight about this (har har har).
I don’t believe that being gay is a choice. I believe that you can make the choice to put yourself under the heading of “gay,” that it’s not entirely a biological predisposition, but I believe that there are plenty of people who are physically attracted to the same sex because of something in their chemistry. (Hell, I love me some boobies and sensuous curves from time to time.)
However, if you want to say that being gay is a choice – if you want to treat it like it’s a religion (which my mother does), a choice to worship at the altar of one’s body (pretty much a direct quote from her) – then let me just say this:
Freedom of religion.
Hindus, atheists, Muslims, New Age spiritualists, Wiccans, Christians, and all the rest: no one forbids them from getting married or asks them to be content with domestic partnerships. Oh, I’m not saying there isn’t a general oppression of many of these people within the borders of the US, not by any means – but when was the last time the vocal political Christians complained about “those damn New Agers, ruining marriage, look at them go”?
If you do think that being gay is a choice – just like religion is, may I point out – then you still don’t have any grounds to bar them from equal rights to marriage and the legal benefits that provides.
I was raised on the Bible. I know it pretty damn well. Not once did Jesus – the cornerstone of the Christian religion – say anything resembling, “Go forth and impress your personal beliefs on others.” Spread the truth, yes, but that truth was love, not hatred. And in a country founded on separation of church and state, you’re trying to blur that line in a way that makes me – and most of your fellow Americans – very uncomfortable.
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I’m going typ toe this up wtih no corrections
like i swaer to god I’m nto drunk or in any other way affected by substances
I’m just really shaky because thinga re pissing me off
things like people’s expecations and bliefs about jobs and people getting them (or not getting them() and no that’s not okay that you think my boyfriend is lazy just because the noly company taht ave him an interview in 18 months was Starbucks
I understand firsthand why that’s such a terrible job but dear lord why does everyone look down on it
fuck this social construct that says blue collar labor makes you dumb and undesrviong of anything good and benath people who earn their living with their typing fingers and not their caloused hands
I just
alllllll dayyyyyy
omg I hate conflict
I hate it so much that usually I avoid it
but then once upon a time I got sick of it
so then it was time
time to just face it.
FUCK
I did tai chi this morning and I drank some stress-relieving tea and my jaw is still as tight as all hell
but for once I can’t retreat from this
it’s either face it down or get the fuck away
and, well, money
so here we go…
it’s awesome how I’m the one being mistreated in this situation, yet I’m still trying to placate everybody…
“hey, it’s best if we don’t mention this in front of them.”
“I’m not badmouthing you; please do the same for me.”
“yeah, it was a ‘falling out’.”
so, it’s either him or me, and you’ve picked him – but let me make this as easy as goddamn possible for you
…this is why I’m grateful tonight for Jake, Joel, Michelle, Sara, and quite a few others. y’all are my lifeline right now.