whenever things are changing, I get what I used to think was a nervous twinge in my stomach, but actually means I’m about to learn something significant. something that will keep things from being the same again. I have that now. my mom always talked about this point in your 20s where you pull your head out of your ass and not just philosophize that the world doesn’t revolve around you, but really know it, in your gut. I think that might what this is. well shit.