all of my excitement (and it’s genuine) aside, the prospect of going to one of the biggest companies in the country is, to put it mildly, terrifying.

and yesterday, I really spaced. my head was full and I fell into pure focus mode and I lost touch with, well, reality. it took a jarring realization that I had ignored Jake all day to snap me out of it.

but thank god for him. or thank the stars, or whatever. I’m so grateful my gut is tight. I need his grounding presence. I need his sensibility and his reassurance and the sheer warmth of his aliveness. I need his love, his needs, his hope and his homeness. I need him.