Down by the Bay

Nothing could make the moment more special.  He drapes over my shoulders, chin on my head, staring at the waves.  Our hands tangle and squeeze against my chest.  The silky roar of the ocean, crashing against the spray-dappled rocks, overwhelms any need for idle conversation.  I close my eyes.  It is me, and him, and the power of the water.  No cell phones, no family members’ pestering, no toxic workplaces or health problems.

Just us.

The sun breaks through the pale grey clouds, and I tilt my face towards its light, smiling with my eyes closed.  His hand touches my chin and gently turns me around so I faced him.  He is only a few inches taller than me, but when he looks at me with our forever in his eyes, he towers over me.

He kisses my forehead and slides his hand down to my wrist.  Without a word, but with a smile that makes a promise, he leads me down into the maze of rocks jutting out of the side of the cool Pacific shoreline.  Our beaches are rock and pebbles and sometimes a tiny strip of grey sand; golden beaches are legendary, to be visited on vacations.  Our beaches are for every day.

We pick our way down like two-legged mountain goats.  I giggle when the spray tickles my face, and when I lick my lips it tastes like salt and fish.

Suddenly, he’s tugging me down towards a flat boulder, tucked up against the hillside so the top of the embankment can’t be seen.  I lay down beside him on the sun-warmed stone and reach for his hand.  We stare up at the sky, which threatens rain and heat in the same breath.  His fingers dance gently between mine, adjusting his grip so I am unable to get free.  As if I would want to.  I smile into the light.

His lips brush my forehead, pushing aside a wayward curl.  My whole body responds to his presence, an arousal I have been hiding for hours.  We already made love when we woke up, but I am unable to be near him for long without desiring him.  Even more so, I crave his company and conversation; it fills an emptiness in me I hadn’t realized I suffered from until I met him.

He kisses me again, lower now, on my nose, my upper lip. I wait until he hesitates, then entrench my fingers in his hair and pull him down to me.  We meet in the way humans have met for longer than we have kept track – lips on lips, moist groping skin seeking the answer to the most terrifying question we all ask: am I alone?  And with every kiss, his answer to me is no, no, never.

He works his careful way down my body.  I halfway watch the edge of the hill, but if someone comes, they will see little.  Even a curious soul would have to pick their way down to find us.  So I lift my body to let him take off my shirt and kiss around the line of my cami.  Today I left my bra and panties at home, and he discovers this with soft, happy grunts in between caresses.

His hand slides beneath my waistband and his skillful fingers wriggle between my pussy lips. I sigh through my teeth and he grins at me, then kisses my breasts again, sneaking peeks at my face with his beautiful green eyes upturned.  Clear, bright, unrelenting Irish eyes.  I am overwhelmed by love, the very thought of him priming me so that when he slips two fingers inside of me, I come almost immediately.

He toys with me a while, while the breeze picks up and the clouds scud over me.  I turn my head and give him a long, meaningful look.  He tickles my clit one last time before he slips out and lets me pull my pants down over my ass.  Then I turn to his and undo the button, drag down the zipper.  His cock is ready for me.  I take the head gently between my lips and suck him all the way to the back of my throat, hitting my gag reflex but controlling it so my mouth contracts around him.

He sighs and grips my hair, pushing him deeper inside my mouth.  I wriggle my tongue all around the perfect girth, awakening a rush of blood that has me on my back, pants at my ankles, before I realize the oral is over.  He licks his fingers and wets me, then slides inside.  There is no first pump, just a long, slow decline against me until our bodies cling where our skin is bared.

I shift so he can better penetrate me, wrapping my arms around his shoulders and neck.  He never takes his gaze off my face except to close his eyes when the ecstasy is too much.  We bob together gently, like the waves; the tide is heading out.  My thighs are slick, my palms sweating.  I am coming, coming again, throwing back my head as I arch up into him.  He grips the stone beneath me with his powerful hands and he comes too.  He throbs into my waiting hollow.

Slumped, at last, we lie in love.  He rolls off me and we stare at the sky again.  Nothing has changed.  We are the same.  We are all that needs to be.

Commanded Cat

She wished she had real ears to flick, cowering against his leg at the sight of so many new people milling about the convention center.  She looked up at Him enquiringly, and He tugged gently on the leash attached to her collar.

“Come on, girl,” He said, and they started moving towards the entrance at a slow pace to accommodate her knees.  Despite the kneepads, the ground was hard, and she was worried the body-tight leopard fursuit might be damaged.

Someone rushed up to them in a vibrant blue squirrel outfit.  "Oh my god!  Is that a cat?“

"She’s mine,” He said with a contented smile.

She blushed and pretended to wash her face with a paw.  Beneath the warm suit, she could feel moisture gathering against her tiny panties.  Of all of the reasons she donned the suit, this was the most fulfilling.

“Up, girl!”  He tugged on the leash and she obeyed, rearing up and pawing at the end of the leash, which He dangled like a toy.  "See?“ He added when she dropped back down to all fours, "she’s an lovely obedient thing.”

The squirrel nodded admiringly.  "I’d say so.“

"Come along,” He said, and led her towards the bathrooms.  She trotted along at an impressive clip, the weight of the collar a solid reminder of the power He held over her.

Finally they reached the three doors – men’s, women’s, family.  He opened the family door and motioned her in.  The floor was not spotless and she wrinkled her nose, but obeyed, her whole body shuddering with the arousal of following orders.

When they were inside, He lifted her to her feet and embraced her.  "Wash your hands, and then come to the corner.“

"Yes sir,” she said; she was permitted to speak when she was not on all fours, in character.

When she was finished with the aromatic soap, she dried her hands carefully and turned around.  He had already unzipped His pants but was waiting for her to finish the unclothing.  Her spine tingled but she kept it erect.

He, too, was erect, and she spent a moment basking in His glory: the unblemished head, the ridges that gave her such pleasure, the veins like gentle rivers.  She kissed the tiny hole and now she was shuddering with uncontrollable heat.

His hands were all over her, now on her ass, now on her cheeks: “Don’t move,” He said, and stalked around her to the back of the suit.  The zipper slid down, cold against her back, but she held herself rigidly as He had commanded.

He reached beneath her when the suit fell away and His fingers wandered from her asshole to her clit.  They lingered there, taunting her.  "Don’t move,“ He whispered in her ear, an unbearable tickle.  She stiffened, her mind full of the pleasure to come, all beneath an even more overwhelming desire to serve.

"Not even your lips,” He said, and lifted His hand from her crotch and slipped His fingers into her mouth.  He teased his cock between her cheeks, then slowly bent her over and lunged into her entrance.  She had to bite her lip but remained still, except for the necessities of gravity.

“Tell me,” He said, “how much you love me.”

“I love you so fucking much.”  It burst out of her, undammed.  "So fucking much.  I will walk on my hands and knees for you.  I will take you in my mouth and bring you to orgasm.  I will do whatever you say.“

"I will do whatever you say, sir,” He said, applying a slap to her ass.  It made her squeeze Him, rippling along his shaft, and his breathing changed.

“I will do whatever you say, sir,” she gasped.  "Everything, sir.  Every desire that passes through your mind.  Sir.“

"Good girl,” He said, and He draped Himself over her back and gave her what she wanted more than anything in the world, in that moment.

His hand lingered over hers and His fingers wandered over the dark ring on her left hand.  She felt Him smile.

“Good girl,” He said again.

Dirty Counters

“Aren’t you done?  I’m done.  Done done done.”  Alexa swung the whisk around, flicking bits of egg mixture everywhere.  "We wake up, there’s something to do.  We come home, there’s something to do.  We go out for a couple of hours, and we get back and we get glared at.“

Jensen hunched over his own mixing bowl, his fingers worrying at the half-frozen ground beef.  "Shhh.  Baby girl.  You think I’m not in the same boat you are?  Of course I’m done cooking for ungrateful people.  Just – light at the end of the tunnel.”

“I just – wish there was something we could do.”  Alexa tapped the whisk on the side of the bowl and dropped it into the sink.  "Y’know, for our own evil purposes.  Or whatever.“

"We could fuck on the counters.”  Jensen said it so quietly she had to lean towards him to hear it.

“What?”

“You heard me.”  He didn’t look up at her, but the corner of his mouth twitched playfully.  "I’ll fuck your brains out on the counters, and every time they cook, you can laugh to yourself.“

"Iiiii,” she said, drawing out the word as she slunk around the island towards him, “like it.”

Jensen slammed the bowl down on the stovetop, looking her hungrily in the face.  "I didn’t ask you if you liked it.“  He reached for her and took her shirt in both hands, wrenching it off over her head.  His lips locked with hers, and their tongues danced as he undid her pants and yanked them down her legs.  She went for his shirt, tugging it over his glasses, careful not to let it catch.

Jensen caught her up by the waist and hoisted her onto the counter; Alexa’s toes curled into the waistline of his pants and pushed them down over his ass.  His cock emerged, aching towards her.  She pushed aside some dishes and ignored the crumbs digging into her thighs.  Tugging her towards the edge of the counter so she was just balanced, Jensen teased her entrance and then entered her.

Alexa tossed back her head and laughed wildly.  "Sweet, sweet fucking revenge.”

Jensen grunted in reply.  He held her waist with one hand and the counter with the other, while she grabbed onto his shoulders and rested her other hand next to his against the polished counter surface.  Their skin slick with droplets of dishwater, they rocked until the knife block rattled.  Alexa tossed her head back, panting and laughing.

“Harder!” she cried out, and Jensen doubled his pace, his cock swelling and sweat beading on his brow as he strove for Alexa’s satisfaction rather than a quick finish.  She obliged, her inner walls clenching him to her, reminding him of her closeness.  He took a deep breath, thrilling at the smell of her hair and skin, and came.  He dropped his hand to make circles on her clit, bringing her to climax again, and they shuddered together.  She collapsed against him.

“I’m not cleaning the counter,” she giggled into his ear.

“Me either,” he murmured back, then drew back, touched her chin, and kissed her.

“I love you.”

“Always,” she said, kissing him back.

We would lie in those afternoon beds, afterwards, hands on each other, talking it over. Possible, impossible. What could be done? We thought we had such problems. How were we to know we were happy?

The Handmaid’s Tale, Margaret Atwood

Listen; if ever in my letters to you, or in my conversation, you see a candor that seems almost crude, — please know that it is because when I think of you I think of real things, & become honest, — and quibbling and circumvention seem very inconsiderable.

Happiness. It was the place where passion, with all its dazzle and drumbeat, met something softer: homecoming and safety and pure sunbeam comfort.

Daughter of Smoke and Bone, by Laini Taylor

neil must feel this with me all the time…i wasn’t a sci-fi kid, i wasn’t into “dr. who”, or movies, or reading fantasy books, or any of the things that delight him when they pass his nostalgia radar. he has to rely on other people for all that joy-sharing. but i can try. i do try. i at least try to see where those things touched him…and why…and that’s all we can do for each other, sometimes. respect the things that delight the other, and not feel like we have to achieve any deeper understanding. the fact that those we love are feeling joy should just be enough in itself, otherwise we’re loving selfishly…we have to be a part of story. you don’t always have to be a part of the story. you can watch.

we do what we can: abide on the side and try to sense the significance.

and that leaves us….

i think it leaves us with some sort of deep lesson about loving things that we don’t necessarily understand.

Amanda Palmer (via kaylotta)

Me: Do you have any particular requests for your [racing] helmet?
Jake: That it be a Simpson.
Jake: And that you get one to compliment or match.
Me: Yessir!