“do this for you.”
it’s an incredibly frustrating phrase for a submissive personality to hear. but at the end of the day, it’s the most selfless, abiding, loving request ever made of me.
it means I’m responsible for my own happiness, and though that’s a responsibility few might want, it’s a damn sight better than being dependent on the ever-changing moods of the volatile creature known as “human” who is outside of myself and my control.
it means on the days when everything hurts, I have not only my pride and my accomplishments to hang on to, but also the unconditional love of someone who has every opportunity to ask me to do what he says (and instead has promised to love me anyway and asks only that I be myself).
it means I don’t just bring to the table my reactions to what is in front of me (causing negative situations to double), but my actions and my inner strength that comes from knowing that I can do what I set my mind to, that I can always impress someone (even if it’s just myself), that I could take care of myself if I had to.
so right now, I’m just taking joy from the fact that I don’t. 🙂
