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I get uncomfortable sometimes recounting to my current friends the things that my so-called \u201cfriends\u201d in college said to me and about me (to my face). ultimately it was not the kind of situation I couldn\u2019t remove myself from (and I did), but as someone who grew up sheltered and believing the people around me automatically had my best interests at heart, I didn\u2019t realize the impact of said people calling me names, telling me I wasn\u2019t \u201cright,\u201d that I was clumsy and ugly and weird, and then saying \u201cI love you\u201d in the same breath. it was the kind of cruelty that wears you down so slowly you don\u2019t realize it\u2019s happening until you register that you don\u2019t really like yourself anymore, because you only see yourself through those jabs.<\/p>\n
anyway I\u2019m getting a lot better about most of it but sometimes when I tell my current friends about it and they get outraged at these past people I\u2019m like… oh. this still…affects me… sometimes… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I get uncomfortable sometimes recounting to my current friends the things that my so-called \u201cfriends\u201d in college said to me and about me (to my face). ultimately it was not the kind of situation I couldn\u2019t remove myself from (and I did), but as someone who grew up sheltered and believing the people around me … <\/p>\n